Records of His Grace

Im sad

2011-09-23T00:19:00.000+01:00

Im feeling so bad that I really want to know why that it's happening. God, why all these afflictions? Can you appear now Lord and spare me a shoulder to cry on?

Long Distance Relationship

2011-09-22T06:09:00.001+01:00

I was once frightened by the thought of long distance relationship, looking at how my eldest brother had to go through more sacrifices for his long distance relationship which lasted more than 5 years! But today, they are married, living happily ever after! And my second brother is happily here in Darlington with his girlfriend, wait, they are engaging sooon now! They are mentioned cos they went through the years of separation too, with one in Singapore and one here in the UK. But, Praise God they are happily together too now, just moved into their nice new house, a home really I would say! =D And, my housemate and her boyfriend are together for ten years now, and you wouldnt believe it, they were seperated for 8 years i think!

Why, that I am suddenly reminded about this?

One of my besties, Grace is finally here with Kevin! Though they are one hour away from each other now, but hey!!! It's so much better than 7 hours time difference and the miless they were apart from each other before this. I am just touched seeing them finally together after waiting faithfully for the right timing and for each other :). And of course, I am happy too!! We can have tonnes of sleepovers now Grace! =) It's all worth the waiting.

So, dont tell me now that long distance relationship doesn't work. I am no longer convinced. :) Nothing is too much a problem if it's God's will really. These are the wise words I got from my sister in law!

A summer to remember

2011-09-11T06:08:00.001+01:00

Ah, it's been so long again since I last blogged. It's because my lappie broke, so tonight, (since I cant sleep) I grab my housemate's lappie and decided to blog about this really meaningful summer!

It started with Paris trip with coursemates which I had talked about earlier on. Then, it was HOME! It was great how I finally met up with the girls and old classmates and matrix mates =). It's been two years. I was welcomed with all the "OH MY, YOU HAVE GROWN FAT!" haha. I know I know. It was bad at frst but soon I got used with the expressions and responses really. Haha. I had sleepover sessions with the girls and it was awesome, catching up with lives and everything happened in the last two years. We could just stayed up talking and talking till sun rise. Haha. Girls are chatterboxes! We spent time skype dating the others who are in the different corners of the world. I really missed all the times we used to spend really and it was awesome this time that we get to catch up and just spend time! I am so happy that Grace is joining me this September! I met up with old classmates too!! We could spend the whole night talking and talking about our uni lives. HAha. And, those in India are the less fortunate ones. So, we would be listening to all the complaints really about their lives there. And, I felt so grateful about being here now! Of course, we couldnt help gossiping really.. haha, which is bad! Haha. Meeting up old friends was great, different gangs different feelings but they were all awesome. I would say almost each of us had grown to be mature. Everyone seems to have different views about lives now, compared to high school days. And, a lot of them are no longer single! haha. (that's the gossip part really!) Of course, the time spent with the family is so much treasured! Especially finally meeting up with my eldest bro and my sis in law! I really missed those moments we spent crapping, laughing and just being a family! I really do miss them and I wish they are here with us! Dad and mom had been pampering me soooo much like a princess this trip home. Haha, and also my nanny! I seriously miss it! And, I had a lot of rabbits!! ahhh!.. cruel eh? it's known to be tonic though. Haha.

Besides meeting up and catching up, this trip home was all about doctor appointments. Well, I had never mentioned really how my body had grown pretty weak over these years. I was admitted hospital and all. So, finally, I am diagnosed to have a condition called fibromyalgia after seeing a few specialists here in UK and back home. It's basically a condition with pain all over the body, with no specific causes and cure. But, thank God that I had found a really suitable medicine which manages the condition well. it's not life threatening, just affective in one way or another but I believe, by His grace, I will be all well :). I have another condition called plantar fasciitis, where I feel pain around the arch of my feet. I had got injections for the heels and so, they are much relieved too. And, I had few sessions with the "chinese doctor" too. It really helped a lot as according to the doctor, I have dislocated joints (which might have caused more pain). So all in all, I am all right now and I am all grateful! And, really thanks my parents for spending a lot on my health issues this trip!

I had to come back earlier to Sunderland as I need to do my shifts. So, luckily, Esmond came to visit me for three weeks. It was awesome three weeks. Trust me, we went hiking, picnic, canoeing, strolling around the north east. It was just plainly catching up and spending time together. It had been so long since I last met him and I really do miss him! He's still as nice as ever and he has really grown a lot, into a mature man now! But, the lame bit is never changed. Haha. We spent time doing simple things yet meaningful! We spent time praying together too and I am really touched seeing him a christian now! :) I am more than thankful for what a friend he is. I really find him a great company over the 3 weeks as we travelled together, taking it slow and enjoying His creation in the most peaceful pace. (I bet it was all good cos he carried everything for me! =P) I really thank God for the chance of the fellowship together. Ah, I miss you and thanks! I shed tears when he left, tears of reluctance :(. We shall meet again, in Germany!

Ah, so only two weeks left now till school starts. I better cherish the time left! =) That's a long messy entry =X

Romance

2011-06-22T05:16:00.000+01:00

Never did I posted something about romance up here.

I know I should be blogging about home, but wait, this is so true that I shall write it down before I forget.

I'm home and I am excited of course (I shall write about it)!

I had kampua! Kompiah! and what.. bak zhang! and my green leaves! and the spongy cheese cake.. kebab! I know. it's only the second day.

Heys, back to the topic.

I had to see my family doctor for some body conditions i am having and guess what,

he said something almost every doctor said!!

"Get a boyfriend you should!!"

HAHA!

And I was there in my dining room talking to my nanny who had seen me grow throughout the years.

Then she asked.

And, I realised I look for someone who is dad-alike!

So passive in some ways. No temper yet firm. Always being caring in a special way. Always do things behind the scene. Quiet in a sense that he is a perfect listener. Managing money so well yet always so generous with people. Always tender and loving. No pressure. Never demanding and ever so considerate. So flexible in a way that you are not worried when things go wrong. Always telling me that it's ok, that everything is going to be fine. Just being there beside quietly, telling you that pray to God and trust Him. He is never good with words, luvy duvy words he never tell me but he is always good with actions. Though lots of times, you need to tell him what to do but he never fail to do what you need him to help do. He is the man!

Is this a belated father's day entry? haha. I got him a card and a shirt. And he is so sweet by asking me, how could you get such a lovely card? :) This is how my dad is like, He conveys his gratitude in a different way which I always forget to look at. He is special in his own ways.

Am I going to get married with someone like him? I am sure my ideal husband is going to be like him! Now I understand why and what I am looking for. =) Thanks to my nanny for telling me. She even said, when I was a little kid, I told her I want to marry someone like daddy! HAah.

Home sweet home. I think the table is ready for lunch! =)Just some songs to share.

Bonjour!

2011-06-11T17:55:00.005+01:00

BOO! It's beeen a while now since I last posted something up here since my last paper!! hahaha. I was allll packed with shifts and trips since exam ended!!..

Went to York and Darlington with 5 of the peeps and just got back from a 7 days trip from PARIS! YES! it's paris! it's my second time there.. and still, I LOVE PARIS!...and Disneyland! It was cool 7 days with lots of answered prayers and of course, lots and lots of new experiences! I am super tired now!!! There were 9 of us.. but thank God everything went well despite the rain and how it had been so wet for the last couple of days. To look at the bright side, it isn't as warm!

Spent two days in Disneyland! And it's SUPER COOL! It was fun and haha, I ended up going up to a few crazy rides with the peeeps. 360 degree turn!! It was crazy! And.. disneyland is sooo cool especially the studio park.. we had lots of cool experience and not to forget the super-imaginative and fantasy-ish effect it brought. Haha. I loveeee it but... IT'S SOOOO EXPENSIVE! Everything was expensive!..haha. But FUN!=) it's like I was once again a kid in a wonderland! But no, I dint get to take picture with Mickey :( haha. There's toooo much to mention if I were to list down every single bit of disneyland! experience it one day! =)

Foood. I tried raw beef! It was yummy! Had raw fish and oyster too!!! and of course, we had snails too! Pasties are never missed for a Paris trip! and also...Macaroons of course! but you know how expensive they are. I think they are nice but not my favourite. You can try but to be honest, don;t spend too much on it. Not worth it.And guess what, we had lots and lots of liver pate (goose, chicken, duck) in this market where they gave you free ones to try, Haha! I love PATE!! ICE CREAM too of course! Ah, i just realised we did have lots to eat. Sorbet was awesome! All in all, I appreciate French cuisine but... again, EXPENSIVE! haha. We had chinese food after we landed this morning in Newcastle and everything suddenly seems soooo much cheaper! Haha!

Eiffel! Yes, i love Eiffel tower! this time, I get to go to the very top! She's still as beautiful as the last time I went there with Phebe and Lana. Oh wait, It's a he cos' I said he's my husband. HAHA. Well, it's something that melts your heart when you see it blinks!.. I still love it so much. We got to see her from all different angles this time and I really appreciate every bit of it. Guess what, we spent the night on the tower looking at the sun set and the city in the sparkles of lights..the nightview was awesome.

We climbed up to the very top of Norta Dame as well! The Arc of Triumph was conquered too! Went to Orsay' Musuem and the Lourve! Spent an evening in the Lourve and met Mona Lisa! :) It's a must see! Though it's so much smaller than I expected. And the Napoleon apartment definitely impressed me. We came out of the Lourve, being welcomed by the sun set and pink-ish red sky! SUPER beautiful it was. Everything was in such a good timing! The Basilica on the top of Montmarte was magnificent too! Ah, I could only say, Paris is beautiful!

We also managed to visit the Versailles Palace. Oh my, it's so majestic! HUGE AND GOLDEN! and the gardens! is.... sooooooo huge and beautiful!!!! And, we saw a chinese couple taking wedding photos. Ah, how romantic that is! You must visit this place if you have the chance. It's so beautiful!..!

God had been really good to us for the last 7 days. Everyone was fit and healthy. He provided what we need. He solved problems we faced. The fellowship was great! Though the weather was not very good but we were still thankful that the bad weather never lasted too long to kill our enthusiasm. I am thankful for everything despite the fact that I am in this most romantic city without a life partner for the second time now. HAHA.

I was praying hard on top of the eiffel towel though that I am there again with him :P

I shall rest for now. =)

49 days!

2011-05-19T23:48:00.000+01:00

It's been so long since I last watched a korean drama.

But hey,

check this out.

Recommended by my brother.

I like how the story itself is so unpredictable in some ways. (aint so typical i wud say)

And.

It's composed of friendship, family love and the love between a man & a woman =)

Watch if you have the chance!

Those times.

2011-05-19T15:06:00.001+01:00

I missed those times we cycled.

Looking at the sun set.

was beautiful =)

One last paper left!! & Happy Birthday Kai Ling!

2011-05-18T22:02:00.003+01:00

It's beeeeeeen torturing! but thank God that there's only one more left.

Exam today was sooooo energy consuming!

But yays,

it's over!!!! =)
Thank God!

ONE MORE! just ONE MORE!

Then it's going to be SUMMER HOLIDAY!

London, paris and HOME!!!! then Germany? =)

Food to keep us survive till now. HAHA.

Happy Birthday Housemate Kai Ling =)

Connie's 21st

It was Connie's birthday on the 16th few days ago. It was exam period so we couldnt do much celebration. But it was all good times =)

Pathology & Therapeutics tomorrow. AIKS.

2011-05-18T21:49:00.000+01:00

I'm not ready for tomorrow's paper :( !! sobs.

But we need food to keep us going! :P

I spent less than 20 mins in cooking this sort of kimchi fried rice!

And Joyce made the drinks. Neslo & teh ais! Little things to encourage ourselves. *SMILES*

Then, back to notes. *SOBS*

I am so... dono.. really... ah, I am gonna be okay.

Loneliness

2011-05-11T01:24:00.001+01:00

Lonely little dandelion. Lonely her. Lonely me.

Ah, loneliness creeps in at this hour of silence.

I still cannot study.
I am calling it a day now.

Feeling... oh-i-cant-do-it again.

Gotta talk to the Father.

Went "gai gai"

2011-05-10T22:00:00.001+01:00

Tried to destress by going gai gai with joyce, but apparently it didnt help much!! opsss..

I cant study!!!!!

but heys, I love the evening sky! it's super beautiful! ah!

Random-nyaaaa....

Come on...

I got to study!!!!!

Slap me! XD

Listening to Larry's new song... I think you slack more than me!! HAHA!

cute song btw!!! =)

Haahaha, conquer the vessels already wei!!

check this out! :)

Porridge for breakfast!! =)

2011-05-10T12:31:00.001+01:00

Aw.. I woke up to breakfast prepared by housemate, Joyce! =)

Sweet! and yups.. YUMMY! and satisfying! My tummy is happy now!

Thanks a lot girl!!

Gotta study hard!!!

What exam brings!

2011-05-09T18:36:00.004+01:00

I wonder really.. why I am so worried about exam when it's just an exam after all. It's the way we were brought up I guess, never allowed to fail and was always expected to excel. It used to drag me so much throughout the years, to be honest, still now I could get so stressed out over that few pieces of papers. (It's getting better, really :))

But, to look at it differently, so many times, I found myself so humble and weak before Him. I know I need Him. Few days ago, I found myself on my knees telling Him I could not go any further. (It seriously sound like there's a major issue) HAhaha. And that's when His strength is made perfect. But, yes.. that's how weak I could get when it comes to exam. I believe everyone has different fears in life, and I am sure exam is one of mine.

So, it's sad sometimes to feel oh-i-cant-do-it.. But, hey.. God brings lovely people into life to make it beautiful. I am reminded again that He is ever faithful. Encouragements, smiles, food, every single jia you means a lot. A prayer is so much needed during these times. And, skype dates! They never failed making me smile. I had a friend telling me.. it's nothing to lose really because nothing in this world belongs to us. Even if I fail.. God would not love me less. So what's so big deal about it?? So TRUE. but yes, the chemicals in my body are out of their minds XD haha. Anyway, the first one went alright. (I wouldnt say I would excel but :) no pressure heys.) Thanks for the every encouragements given :)

It's all about coping. Really.=)

Haha, oh we were stressed. and randomness! :)

Steamed pao-s for breakfast! :)

And one of the girls from the gang has a boyfriend already!!! Ah, I just can't help mentioning it here! Congratulations Melissa!! My wishes for both of you to be "xin fu"!! :) Yays. We are really happy about it. We have this special group in fb where we talk and update really. And ah, reading their stories definitely plaster a smile on our faces =) Aw, HE IS ROMANTIC! :P

Anyways, Fang fang and Xiao Hei got married!! It's sooo sweet! God has finally put them together! And I am sure they are being such a good example as God-loving artists. To LOVE "properly" =) HEHE. Touching wei!

And I should really stop youtube-ing and grab some rest and start reading for my friday paper. Pathology and Therapeutics! Ah, the most to memorise!

A friend wrote this to me , "We don't have to do it ourselves, do we? We have God. His infinite strength and love will get us through." beautiful :)

Exam is never my thing!

2011-05-06T08:00:00.001+01:00

:( I m stressed out!!!

Shifts to cover.

Endless notes to read.

It's 3 days away.

Aiks.

Prayers needed!

Was really unsettled last night.

But thank God for a restful sleep.

The sky is gloomy. Sobs

Things that make me smile! =)

2011-05-04T20:27:00.002+01:00

It's all about studies now.. so life is no fun at the moment! Really :(

Found out something that is really easy to cook! Just "throw" the chicken into a pot of water and cook on low heat. Never boil it. It's super tasty and the meat is sooo juicy! Satisfying dinner!..

Joyce cooked this! super nice!

It's accompanied with this really nice sauce!! Just mince spring onion and ginger. Add salt and sugar and oil. We used olive oil, which is healthier. =)

The sauce :)

Kai Ling baked chocolate cake! with almond flakes!!!

We had some "fun" in the kitchen.

Dried longan with red dates and lotus seed.

I cooked this super easy "tang sui" in the afternoon. Glucose boost :) hehe. Taken from here!

Food!

2011-04-30T01:39:00.000+01:00

A day of whole lot of food :) Blessed I am!

Bro prepared yummy breakfast for us! :) And we had them while watching the royal wedding. Kate's so beautiful!!

Portobello on toast, I LOVE IT!

We made Lok Mai Gai :) Glutinous rice with chicken & mushroom

Got this recipe from here! But, we didnt have the lap cheong. so yea, chicken and mushrooms :) Think it was a success just that the rice isn't sticky enough. Should get better quality ones in future.

KFC here is just nothing compared to those back home. :(

I was in bed for 2 hours and I could not sleep! And so, I am here at such hour..!!!! Ah, sleepless night! No fun! I counted sheep, talked to shepherd, what else? :/

Bro cooks!

2011-04-28T18:03:00.000+01:00

Sweet and Sour Pork Ribs! YUMMY! :)

Recipe taken from here.

It turned out not as dark as expected though, but it's yuuuummmmmy!

Home!

2011-04-27T22:36:00.001+01:00

I am blessed because I have a place called HOME in the UK!

Took a train down to darlington, where my brother and Swee Yen are.

Family is where the heart is!

It was golden silent moment with just myself, songs and the Lord on the train.

The sceneries kept changing as the train travelled from Sunderland to Darlington.

And they are gorgeous! especially with the evening sun.

For the first time, I did not sleep the whole journey.

I spent time, appreciating His wonderful creations.

Easter Sunday!

2011-04-24T18:15:00.000+01:00

It's Easter Sunday and it's also my first time helping out with the beacons! Meaning, the kids sunday school, of kids ranging from the age of 2-7/8 i think. It's beeen a while since I last worked with the kids!! I was quite excited with the new experience!

I really love kids!!! Their innocence can never fail to make me smile! and, they are just way tooooo cute! I was bringing them down to the toilet and helping them to wash their hands and dry them.. It reminds me of the good old Girls' Brigade days when we used to help out with the cadets'. Aww..the adorable ones.

They reminded me of JOY. They are all so energetic and joyful that Christ is risen! When they were told to draw what makes them sad, I was expecting them to draw things like "when someone snatches my barbie doll" but I was surprised to see a lot of them drawing the death of Christ in their own very ways! We sang and danced (yes, danced! haha) and played games! I won myself an easter egg! :) hahaha. It was just.. awesome to be able to be one of them again! (to be young! XD)

Their theme song! and we sang it with actions! =) It's indeed a fun sunday morning!

Good Friday

2011-04-23T00:42:00.000+01:00

It's good Friday today! To be honest, my heart was heavy because of some unsorted feelings and issues. I came to His presence, feeling so weak and out of focus. I couldn't think, meditate nor pray. Am I defeated in some ways by the emotional weakness? This is a battle to win.

The new perspective of pain

2011-04-21T10:25:00.001+01:00

Psalm 73

A psalm of Asaph.

¹ Truly God is good to Israel,
      to those whose hearts are pure.
² But as for me, I almost lost my footing.
      My feet were slipping, and I was almost gone.
³ For I envied the proud
      when I saw them prosper despite their wickedness.
⁴ They seem to live such painless lives;
      their bodies are so healthy and strong.
⁵ They don’t have troubles like other people;
      they’re not plagued with problems like everyone else.
⁶ They wear pride like a jeweled necklace
      and clothe themselves with cruelty.
⁷ These fat cats have everything
      their hearts could ever wish for!
⁸ They scoff and speak only evil;
      in their pride they seek to crush others.
⁹ They boast against the very heavens,
      and their words strut throughout the earth.
¹⁰ And so the people are dismayed and confused,
      drinking in all their words.
¹¹ “What does God know?” they ask.
      “Does the Most High even know what’s happening?”
¹² Look at these wicked people—
      enjoying a life of ease while their riches multiply.

¹³ Did I keep my heart pure for nothing?
Did I keep myself innocent for no reason?
¹⁴ I get nothing but trouble all day long;
every morning brings me pain.

¹⁵ If I had really spoken this way to others,
      I would have been a traitor to your people.
¹⁶ So I tried to understand why the wicked prosper.
      But what a difficult task it is!
¹⁷ Then I went into your sanctuary, O God,
      and I finally understood the destiny of the wicked.
¹⁸ Truly, you put them on a slippery path
      and send them sliding over the cliff to destruction.
¹⁹ In an instant they are destroyed,
      completely swept away by terrors.
²⁰ When you arise, O Lord,
      you will laugh at their silly ideas
      as a person laughs at dreams in the morning.

²¹ Then I realized that my heart was bitter,
      and I was all torn up inside.
²² I was so foolish and ignorant—
      I must have seemed like a senseless animal to you.
²³ Yet I still belong to you;
      you hold my right hand.
²⁴ You guide me with your counsel,
      leading me to a glorious destiny.
²⁵ Whom have I in heaven but you?
      I desire you more than anything on earth.
²⁶ My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,
      but God remains the strength of my heart;
      he is mine forever.

²⁷ Those who desert him will perish,
      for you destroy those who abandon you.
²⁸ But as for me, how good it is to be near God!
      I have made the Sovereign Lord my shelter,
      and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do.

[The ultimate good in life is not prosperity, nor the absence of pain, but the nearness of God.]

Read this, it is so true that we grow nearer to Him when we are weak and in troubles, not only us christians. Even non-christians, do you not see people kneel and pray when they are in the verge of breaking down when someone is dying when someone nearly fall down from a cliff. (random examples XD.haha) If we could one day see pain in another perspective-to bring us near to God, we could claim that pain is a blessing. :)

Holiday so far

2011-04-20T02:32:00.001+01:00

It had been pretty eventful since holiday started a week or so ago! Shall blog about it! (soon I promise) It was Winson's birthday plus sunrise followed by my surprise birthday bbq.. and Chieng Loo's surprise visit, birthday celebration and then Dublin! Feeling super blessed!

It's all goood! But, time to study and yea, I haven't really got the time to blog but been studying today whole day and I was only back here yesterday! Ah, I am missing the good times already!

CL made them and brought them all the way from Dublin! Super touched!

From home! :)

2011-04-08T00:37:00.001+01:00

Received my 21st birthday card from daddy and mommy dearest today! awwww... SO SWEEET!
Thanks for everything!!!!!

Holiday Plans :)

2011-04-07T01:09:00.000+01:00

I was planning for my friend's birthday and realised there are so many places to visit here at the north east!!

Check it out here!

Yikes

2011-04-06T23:47:00.000+01:00

Exam is tomorrow but no, I don't feel like working on it. YIKES!

*SLAP SLAP SLAP*

Vulnerable

2011-04-06T21:09:00.001+01:00

Suddenly, I realized I am really vulnerable at the moment! :( I am so confused!

Missing Home

2011-04-06T00:24:00.000+01:00

I just rang home and talked to dad. I think I miss home that much I really need to be home soon. It's been 1.5 years since I left home. It's too long and I am sure it is unhealthy! :(

2 Peter 1

2011-04-04T07:42:00.007+01:00

Read this passage again after reading Phe's blog! It is a reminder I need so much now, to grow in faith and to focus on the truth.

Had a date with Jesus at this other bank of the river. (never walked this side) To find rest, be quiet and be still in His presence.

Psalm 22:9-11

⁹Yet You are He Who took me out of the womb; You made me hope and trust when I was on my mother's breasts.¹⁰I was cast upon You from my very birth; from my mother's womb You have been my God ¹¹Be not far from me, for trouble is near and there is none to help.

Devotion today reminds me that there are times that only God can help and I need to go to Him alone and win this battle. It actually says if people can help us out, we don't actually have a problem.

Happy Mothers' Day!

2011-04-03T22:33:00.020+01:00

It's so funny how I got my first mothers' day present from my beloved "son". Haha. I called him ah giang and he called me ah ma! umm.. I dont remember how did this start. But I guess I look old enough to become mom or even grandma to a few friends? Haha. and even nanny? Yikes. Anyway, it's mothers' day for the british today! :) And I got this cute prezzie!

He can really draw, right??!!! And it's so nice of him to draw such a cute me! XD hahas. How i wish it's true!haha. I was overjoyed and honoured to receive this in church this morning while the other moms are getting sweet prezzies from their kids. :D It really made me smile! thanks so much for making my day! :)

Mom, you were in my thought today! :) Happy Mothers' Day I want to tell you! MISS U LOTS!

And then, we had a "Sunday Night Live" at Starbucks. And I took a few pics with my phone. Basically, we were there to make Starbucks happy (buying coffee XD)! haha, nah.. we were well fed with wonderful music and lovely testimonials :D and of course, fellowship!

Something really funny. There were two guys standing on the door and he was saying, "Oh come on, come and join us." They just smiled, stood there and listened to the first song. And then when he said "Ok, this next song is a song I wrote, talking about how God has always been there." (if i don't forget wrongly) They left straight away! We all laughed, but.. ah, sad :(! how people reject to hear about Him..

Sharing session with Dave, our pastor.

He is really good! :)

McD and a Friday night

2011-04-02T01:48:00.002+01:00

I simply like the new modern design of McDonald's!

We had a wonderful stroll to the beach, met the juniors there. Had a good laugh and crazy screams! haha. Good times. It's so beautiful when the sand just flew past in rhythm as the crazy wind blew.

How much longer shall I wait, O Lord?

By His grace

2011-03-31T22:56:00.003+01:00

I challenged my soul and emotions, didnt I? By His grace, I think I did it. =) It's all good.

But it was uncomfortable in some senses. :( WWJD

It's so windy!

2011-03-31T16:25:00.001+01:00

Another windy day! Let me check, the forecast says it's blowing at 39mph!!! You could barely move when it's blowing from the opposite direction of where you are going. And, your hair just go everywhere, even your bag cant stay on your shoulder properly! You just move forward or backwards from all directions! Trust me! You could feel that your phone might get blown if you don't grip it tight. SCARY! And if you happen to be carrying a plastic bag, it'll be going everywhere! And I was carrying notes and the paper, basically hugging them! And I think it's funny how you could stand at one point, having bright sunshine above your head that minute and the next, it's covered by the clouds! :) You can actually get it indoor!

And I was bored enough to actually document it. XD

Look at the treees! And listen to the sound of the wind, it's fierce! And, the clouds!(I wasnt moving at all) And, in this, if you see properly, you could see what I meant about the sunshine, being there and gone next sec. (not very good in this one, don't know why I cant upload another vid) And I was holding my cam with both hands, it moved so much!

Pay attention to the fast-moving clouds above the static houses! I have never seen such scene in Malaysia. And, I think I enjoy looking at them, provided that I am staying indoor! :D

If it is one of your windy days (lots of ups and down) in life, don't worry. You will still get the sunshine (hope!) as the clouds (problems) get blown away (The clouds listen to Him XD) Reminds me of faith!

Emotions.

2011-03-30T19:59:00.007+01:00

Emotions, can be so demanding in a sense that they want all your attention! I woke up feeeelinggg soooo lousy! Partly it was because I had a long night at work, so I was physically tired. And, I had a dream, so vivid that it brought back memories that have already faded. Then, I started feeling nostalgic. And then, the glooomy sky made me feeeel gloooomy as well (now, I'm blaming on the weather! XD) Or should I blame the hormones instead? (Esp girls?) And loneliness.. makes it worse. yikes.

I have a chemistry exam next week. So, I NEED to study, but I seriously couldn't focus. I was thinking about a lot of stuffs, except Chemistry! XD

I felt so lousy that I found myself chopping carrots, onions, garlic & etc for dinner. (I think it was only 1pm) Taking my sweet time, I really did enjoy preparing for cooking. I think I just found myself a new way to satisfy the emotions, putting them at rest. :) (Trying not to give in to this funny thing, called emotion)

Was thankful that all the ingredients for pasta are so cheap here, compared to Malaysia. :)

I baked pasta! :) Housemates think it was not bad at all! :)

And, honey roasted parsnips. Housemates don't really like parsnips. =/ But I think those I had at bro's still taste better though. :(

I definitely enjoyed cooking and there'd be nothing else in your brain, except trying the best to cook nice food. :) Emotions plainly have no way to attack your soul that time!

Housemate found this at a grocery shop! =D I like it! It is Sweet and Hot! (I said sweet first, cos you taste the sweetness first before your taste buds get the spiciness.

It's never easy when emotions start to get hold of you. But, I believe, it's still a battle to win! I find talking to Him the best way still, but so many times, we just tend to forget about this and think that other things are able to satisfy this demanding soul, and end up feeling worse and worse at the end of the day after trying so hard yet unsettled. Isn't it?

This reminds me of a phrase;

If you can't sleep, don't count sheep, talk to the shephard. :)

Brilliant weekend in WHITBY!

2011-03-27T19:25:00.002+01:00

And so, no more classes for this week after the last presentation for the semester on thursday. I decided to visit my bro, Charles and his girlfriend, Swee Yen in darlington. To be honest, it was plainly because my lappie got hacked (dont ask XD) and so I need my bro to reformat it and of course, I do want to see them! We havent been meeting up due to my exams and buzzinesssss.

Had great times after the presentation in newcastle with the mates for good food (DIM SUM! =)) And then they sent me off at the train station. I enjoyed the ride to bro's place as I listened to the songs in my shuffle when the train passed by the durham cathedral with the sun setting. Good, quiet time just pondering on life. I do appreciate solitude once in a while, the freedom and just the quietness it brings. (which soon dozed me off XD) Luckily, this girl beside me got down at darlington also, if not I might have missed the station. haha.

Good food at brother's! (He cooks!) It was a great evening chatting and laughing. Ah, quality fellowship I LOVE!

The next day we visited Whitby!! Aaa.. It was 1.5 hrs drive away from darlington. it was foggy n we could hardly see much of the scenery. So much of the good view. XD And finally, we were there!

! I remember the last time we went to the beach was midnight when larry came to visit! Crazy moments with thousands of seagulls lining up on the beach, sleeping! (AMAZING!) Ah, I love the sea, the blue sky. The breeze. The smell of the sea! We were all so excited!! The weather was superb later(thought it would be foggy), totally thankful for it!

The steam passenger bus! (spot the steam) It's called "Elizabeth"!

And we had the legendary fish and chips at The Magpie Cafe, was rated as the best in the Britain! I had haddock and chips. Gorgeous, fresh fishy!!!

Then, we climbed up the 199 steps to the cliff to visit the St. Mary Parish Church with the grave yard and the ruins of Whitby Abbey. The steps wasnt as bad as we thought.

Apparently, this is where the author of Dracula, Bram Stoker got inspired. The church yard and the ruins of the abbey. And so, Whitby has this gothic weekened event every year and it was it when we were there! Lots of people dressing up in the town!

"But, strangest of all, the very instant the shore was touched, an immense dog sprang up on deck from below ... and running forward, jumped from the bow on to the sand. Making straight for the steep cliff, where the churchyard hangs over the laneway to the East Pier ... it disappeared in the darkness."

from Dracula by Bram Stoker, 1897

There was a goth there!

The sun and the clouds with rays of light shining upon the cross!! And the whole town is under your feet.

The Whitby Abbey! Personally, I love this part of the trip the most. It wasnt all about the mighty and great abbey. It was plainly about being at the top of the cliff, getting the whole view of the town, the sea, the greens. I was awed by the scenery, His work of creation. It was beautiful, plainly indescribable. I felt rested. I talked to Him. I was just simply appreciating everything I could see, feel and taste at that very moment. And fresh air! :) especially after stressful times in uni.

Then, we went for tea! The whole trip wouldn't be as wonderful if there weren't lovely peoples around! :) Good fellowship of laughters and joy!!! And of course, the cakes! XD

And lastly, the lighthouse!

I am sure I am coming back to this place next time I am definitely taking the steam train. (We hesitated cos it was bit pricey!)

All in all, WE HAD AN AWESOME DAY! :) Totally thankful for it! But, we were all knackered at the end of the day. Haha. I remembered this song from childhood in the midst of my excitement earlier of the day.

"Hung Ngang" XD

2011-03-24T01:43:00.001Z

A quick, satisfying brunch =)

Dispensing Exam

2011-03-22T00:32:00.003Z

Trust me, I am so tired now, mentally and physically. An exam never failed torturing me! I wonder why! But by His grace, I would say I do get better (less panicked) as compared to last time. Ahh well.. I am proud that I did not take beta-blocker, propranolol (something that slows your heartbeat) this time. But still, i tried something homeopathic. (for calming effects)

Some sort of flower remedies it is, well, I would say it does help. But, I really cant be sure if it was just placebo effects. Haha. I got it just because the price went down, to be honest. Ah wells, try it!

So, two days before my dispensing exam, I was talking to my housemate over the breakfast (just an usual breakfast) Had the day planned earlier on with stacks of prescriptions to study, but who knew, I started throwing out (everything!) and soon fainting before I even finished off 10 prescriptions. I could not stand properly and started fainting and fell down in the toilet. Thank God I got my housemate before I passed out!! They tried to massage me (suspecting a heat stroke) but nothing got better. Took two paracetamol (panadol) and it did not get any better. We were thinking if I had to visit the hospital again but I prayed really hard and told them I should try to sleep and see what happened. I sleeeeeept (waking in the middle feeling giddy still) and sleeeept until 5pm! Woke up feeeeling really weak, and the thought of having dispensing exam on monday really freaked me out. What ifs..

Found myself totally helpless in bed, gazing into the air. I prayed, really hard. I remembered I was desperate, telling Him, okay, I got to be fit for this important exam, I shall recover fast and be prepared, nothing should come anymore XD I was discouraged that time. and hahas, guess what, you wouldnt know if I nearly fainted if you saw me the next day in church. :) |He was FAITHFUL! My housemate nearly forgot about me fainting the day before.

But, my heart which never pumped faster than other people during normal times started being naughty again the night before exam. I could not sleeep!!! Sleeeeplesss.. And I sleept the morning away. (with endless nightmares) I was feeeeling really lousy physically. Prayer, I was praying so hard again for this exam. And PTL I made it through!!!!!...We were all soooo nervous. Three hours of exam which decide our summer holiday or worst, if we are repeating second year.

I nearly passed up a prescription which was outdated (sorry, too pharmacy-ish XD). I spotted the date last minute! Ah, God must had knocked my head on that. Hahas. And oh ya, I was really thankful! I got the number 28 (CL, I thought of your birthday! LOL) and the seat was next to everything I needed to get. Syringes, bottles, boxes and even the items on my prescriptions. Ah, God was good to me. BUT, I got semething messed up, but I hope it is not bad enough to fail the exam. I was so shaky after knowing it after the exam. And a friend, with a simple phrase, "Leave the rest to Him!" stopped me from worrying. :) So true, where's my faith? It's all in His hands now.

Saw some really sad, helpless faces for those who couldnt finish in time. I felt for them. sighs. I wouldnt say this exam is fair. Some people get easy items on their prescription, while some have to measure 7 bottles of drugs (super time-consuming). Ahh.. :( sobs. I hope they are okay.

That day being in bed whole day was helpless, weak moments. I came to find myself so weak and small. And how big He is that there is no way I could depend on myself. Once again, I was reminded of His faithfulness and being submissive.

One exam down, a presentation due thursday and another exam in two weeks time and here comes holiday!!!! :) Ah, I cant wait. It's been a crazy semester. Time just flew!

Food & Fellowship!

2011-03-18T16:24:00.001Z

Had dinner over at one of the church members' place last night. :) Happy times with great food!

Dark Choc-ish Log.. Yummy!! I love it cos it wasn't too sweet!

Sushi :)

Doreen cooking the the creamy sauce.

Grilled chicken with sweet potato! So yummy!

Lasagne :)

Jeanne :)


Meringue Fruit Pavlova! Niceee... Should try baking this!

Hui Ping serving

Joyce with the cake

We want more but we were tooo full!


They practise before everyone comes.. and Hui Ping scored the most last night!

Haha..trying real hard to aim eh?

Fuiyoh!

Davin's turn

She recorded our scores!

And Joyce and I baked a really quick pasta for brunch this morning.

One of the eggy is imperfect XD it was yummy :) We were happy and satisfied!!


:) done in less than 30 mins!

I cant focus for my dispensing exam preparation. This is no good! XD
And.. I sorted out my dublin tickets! Flying over the ocean to meet CL and Larry! :) Looking forward! Oh and I had to get a prepaid mastercard to escape being charged for admin fee for ryan air! (Thanks CL for the tips! XD)

[Seek Me as if you were desperate all the time and then you won't find yourself desperate as often in reality.]

Like this one :)

Those moments

2011-03-16T02:37:00.005Z

Those moments.

Walking alone on the way back home. Listening to songs that stirs up bits of emotions. Walking in the rain. Sitting by the window of the metro. Looking at that something that brings back memories, that particular buidling, that particular bridge, that particular road. Gazing out from the window of my room, behind the curtain. Feeling the sunlight. Looking at the stars in the sky. Waking up in the wee hours. Staying up late. Lying in bed after long hours of uni or work.

Those are the moments.. My brain, my mind, my soul, my heart would start to work so hard....

that I thought of....things....

Things that are and were dear to me which I tried and still trying to put aside. Feelings that I want to let go. Things that matters to me. Words that used to mean a lot. Places that seem familiar. Memories that are still clear and vivid yet had long passed. Things I cherish. People I care.

Sometimes, loneliness creeps in. PTL that at least He is available all the time and whenever we are.

And I miss these things that run in the thought. But, a lot of these things that I thought of, I know I should not be thinking about them. Ughhhh...

It's one of those moments now I guess. : / I better sleep!

Westlife!!

2011-03-16T01:04:00.003Z

It was awesome! my first ever concert experience was great!!!! I thought I would regret it! :) We just screamed at the top of our lungs, trust me, my throat hurts so badly now. We sang along. We danced! totally danced and had so much fun! haha. And, we jumped!.. aaaa.. good songs. good times. good effects. good atmosphere. good crowd. gooooood looking them! XD aaaaa... XD His beautiful creation bah.. :P We all enjoyed the concert Iam positive :) It was great, stress-relieving moments..

To be honest, I aint a fan, but I have nothing against them. especially when my name is mentioned in 'season of the sun' XD hahas. Well well.. I still think I love their old songs better. Stil, they sang well tonight! :) It was all gooood.. :) Some touching moments.. especially when they sang I want to go home... I really do! XD and You raise me up!

Get scolded by the metro driver cos we wasnt sure if we wanted to go down that station. So was half way at the door, sure she wanted to finish her shift so she screamed into the announcement system. It was harsh words. Then, right after this, *change tone* t"he next train will terminate at sunderland station", she announched. HAHA. not cool at all.

it's a monday!

2011-03-15T00:48:00.006Z

Well well.. it's been good four days of shifts..(working as a dispensing assistant in a pharmacy.. just realised i haven;t updated on that) which made up to 24.5 hrs in total for the last four days!. Not easy at all! I could hardly feel my feeeet now. But the good part is it's over and it'd be a week till my next shift :) so time for exam preparation and some gooooood rest..I'm watching westlife tomorrow night!!! :) excited for the first concert ever :)))

Had a productive ten mins nap before work. Being thankful about it! :)

Finally had riceee for dinner! so satisfied and grateful.

Oh, I received a news, which I had beeeeen waiting for months. It's about this summer placement in pharmacy. I didnt get it! Hmm.. to be honest, I am thankful in some ways that I gonna get a good holiday then (finally!) Though it might seem disappointing but well, i got the whole life chance to work.. so.. summer holidays shall be spent holidaying XD (but I still have 12 hours to work per week, with a month holiday only) Cant wait to be back homee..! :)

Done the last case studies presentation this morning! We got 70 from this "stingy" lecturer. So we were overjoyed! haha. :)


our 70! I think it was 60+ in his head :) touched!!! XD

our lunch, not bad at all! :) at the uni cafeteria

Read about this, this morning. And I was thinking of sharing it.

Isaiah 64:8-

Yet, O Lord, You are our Father; we are the clay, and You our Potter, and we all are the work of your hand.

[I like the story about the couple who went into an antique shop one day and found a beautiful teacup sitting on a shelf. They took it off the shelf so they could look at it closely, and they said,'We really want to buy this gorgeous cup."

All of a sudden, the teacup began to talk, saying,"I wasn't always like this. There was a time when I was just a cold, hard, colourless lump of clay. One day my master picked me up and said," I could do something with this." Then he started to pat me, and roll me, and change my shape. I said,"What are you doing?That hurts. I don't know if I want to look like this! Stop!'' But he said,"Not yet."

Then he put me on a wheel and began to spin me around and around, until I screamed,"Let me off, I am getting dizzy!" "Not yet", he said. Then he shaped me into a cup and put me into a hot oven. I cried, "Let me out! It's hot in here, I am suffocating." but he just looked at me through that little glass window and smiled and said, "Not yet".

When he took me out , I thought his work on me was over, but then he started to paint me. I couldn't believe what he did next. He put me back into the oven, and I said," You have to believe me; I can't stand this! Please let me out!" but he said, "Not yet". Finally he took me out of the oven and set me up on the shelf an held me before a mirror. I couldn't believe my eyes, I had become a beautiful teacup that everyone wants to buy."

There may be things going on inside us that we do not understand. But when we finally arrive at that place where God wants to bring us, we will see how it has prepared us for what God wanted for us all along.]

Beautiful, isn't it? :) It encourages me so much.

Happy 54th Birthday Daddy beloved! : )

2011-03-12T13:35:00.006Z

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Looking at the time, I am sure you guys back home are having a great time celebrating.

*doing some imagination*

Food, Family, Fellowship, Fun! (there're all Fs! haha XD)

Talking about my dad, I am always proudly telling people what a great man he is. I was cutting myself some oranges the other day, and I thought of him. He used to knock my door, and came in with plates of perfectly-cut fruits back home. And, I found myself there again, telling my housemates about these little things my dad did which meant a lot to me. He is always that loving.

He could be quiet, serious-looking from the outside. But, he is not, he jokes, he laughs, he is so easy to talk to! He does everything for you but never (trust me, NEVER) boast about it. He never grows tired being a daddy. He did everything from making breakfast to sending me books when I forgot to bring them to school. (the little things that come to my mind at the very moment)

He has the patience of the world! His temper is so slow. He is a man of wisdom. He never fail being my role model! He cares, he loves, he helps, he listens.... I can take forever talking about him, trust me. So yea,

Dad, You are the man of my life! You rock big time! The man I entrust, respect and LOVE!I thank God for having a daddy like you! :)

And I pray (very hard) that my husband is someone like my dad! (HAHA!) well well.. XD

Some pics I found in my lappie

Dad's 51st birthday :) Charles wasn't home

The man & woman of the family! XD

His naughty look XD

Haha. Happened to find this! I think I was quite not-hyper cos of the spm result. HAhA. :) Bro cant sing! XD aaaa.. memories :)

Earthquake in Japan

2011-03-11T16:10:00.002Z

Watching the news broke my heart. :(

picture taken from here

Pray for the lost souls.

A friend reminded about what the bible has to say about this.

Matthew 24:6-14

6 And you will hear of wars and threats of wars, but don’t panic. Yes, these things must take place, but the end won’t follow immediately. 7 Nation will go to war against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in many parts of the world. 8 But all this is only the first of the birth pains, with more to come.⁹ “Then you will be arrested, persecuted, and killed. You will be hated all over the world because you are my followers.¹⁰ And many will turn away from me and betray and hate each other. ¹¹ And many false prophets will appear and will deceive many people. ¹² Sin will be rampant everywhere, and the love of many will grow cold. ¹³ But the one who endures to the end will be saved. ¹⁴ And the Good News about the Kingdom will be preached throughout the whole world, so that all nations^[c] will hear it; and then the end will come.

Is the world coming to an end? Is the second coming of Christ getting near? Are we ready for it? Have we been saving souls around us before it's too late? Or have we turn away from Him?...

Bro is supposed to be in Japan now. But, he ended up not going. God's will is greater than ours, isnt it?

夢飛行鄭欣宜

2011-03-11T05:31:00.001Z

Been listening to it these few days! I heart it :)

Busy, busy days!

2011-03-11T05:22:00.006Z

It's been sleeeeplessss nights since monday!

To share, something really bad happened on tuesday! I lost my report which was due wednesday. It just disappeared from my lappie, gone! I was positive I saved the file! But it wasn't there, and I only realized at around 1-ish am. SO, you can imagine how bad that was and I went crazy! And I just had caffeine boost right before realizing that. So, with all the adrenaline I had in the body, I could not calm down at all. Desperate moment it was! Luckily, FRIENDS, God sent them to pull you through those moments! THANK YOU PEEPS! To make the story short, I worked through the night (with much efffforrrtssss) and the next morning (Joyce made me awesome bfast! :))and got it submitted in time! Really grateful!

Joyce's so called 咸蛋超人：）Thanks gal! It's been sweet and encouraging! Despite the big lips it has! HAHA!! XD

Ter-Heart-shaped stakes of pancakes from joyce!

And then, we spent the rest of the day in the library for case studies discussions. Tiring. Especially being sleepless the night before, but yes, despite it all, we had good food! Our two groupmates (one from Nigeria, one from Cyprus) decided to have chinese food for dinner. And we had lots of chinese takeaway! Too much. XD

Lots of food. Happy times! Our groupmates love the chinese food! And the food kept us going for the night!

And we spent the night in the library, working on the presentation and talking! Hahas. (as we waited for midnight to comne for the surprise we planned for davin! It's his 22nd!) It was a good surprise! And we had nice cakeeeeeyyy..

Happy birthday Davin!!! :)

Funny and he looks really fat! XD

And today, we had a full day of lab and seminar. And after seminar, discussion. After discussion, lab. After lab, we decided we need a break!!!! We went for grocerries and wanted to grab fish and chips (we were craving for cheap pub food) but forgot the fact that they only serve food during the day time and we ended up having good italian food! It was YUMMY! they never fail making me happy! After food, we ended up staying in the library till 3-ish am to finish off our work. Crazy, crazy uni life! but, Thank God we got it done now!

It was good fellowship! of laughters and happy times! and ITALIAN FOOD! XD

Sweets are aweesommee!Tiramisu & Profiteroles

And housemate, Kai Ling made us rojak! They are just HEAVENLY! aaa...*SMILING WITH SATISFACTION* It's one of the things I miss the most from home! and, I realized it's only months away now to be back home! : )

ROJAK!

And it's going to be busy weekend. I am working four days in a row. Aaaaaaaa... I deserve a good rest now! :) In the midst of the business, I am learning to be thankful for those little good things life brings! And of course, God has been blessing me with good food over the last few days! (you can see :P) :)

The panicky experience.

2011-03-08T03:09:00.009Z

I had diarrrheeaaass before this exam i mentioned. :/ Thank God the stomach was pretty good throughout the exam!

The exam was brain-cell-killing! Hahas. It was horrendous! (my lecturer loves that word XD) I got the number 7! And phe, I just couldnt help thinking how you would be so happy everytime you get the number 7! And I just cant help thinking by having this number, the perfect 7, the number God has used over and over again in the bible, I am going to pass! laughs.

And the story is, I did not pass the mock exam! I failed one of the prescriptions! As usual, it was a careless, super careless mistake. I had the dosage checked, changed. It was all good. I was confident and it took lecturer less than 1 minute to realise that I did a major mistake, and off she went, a big cross over my sheet. :( Instead of 2.8ml, I put 2.5ml on the label. Careless, pure careless.But, I am grateful that I managed to finish them all and more grateful that it is just a mock exam! PHEW.

Despite failing, it was all good, except that there were only two lecturers today so we all ended up with sore arms. (We needed to put our hands up to get the prescriber-role-playing lecturers) And because of the shortage of "prescribers", a lot of us didnt finish the 8 prescriptions.

According to senior, it was way more difficult than last year. So I pray that the real one in two weeks time wouldnt be as difficult. And I should prepare more, I was quite in a mess.

And, happy pancake day! it's pancake day in the UK today. Google it! *too lazy to explain* But i promise, it's interesting and meaningful.And it's good cos u get cheap flours, maple syrup n everything-you-need-for-pancake on this day!: )

Dispensing Mock Exam

2011-03-07T09:15:00.004Z

Yes. It is just a mock exam, but a mock exam of a really important exam. If you fail it, you need to resit. If you still fail it, you need to repeat. Well well, we are really worried about it. Everyone is stressed out in one way or another.

And, I had nightmares! I thought I was late (in my dream) and started screaming. Then, I realised it was only 1pm while my exam should start at 2. Haha. Woke up actually feeling tired from that mini panic attack from dream.

I guess I am one of those who cant perform in exams. We are just not an exam person. And, I remember pharmacists back home actually sell propranolol as "exam pill". Lol.

So, I prayed to recover from that little shake. Pastor was reminding us about being prayerful. And I like this particular translation of this verse.

Romans 12:12 (Tom Wright)
"Celebrate your hope; be patient in suffering; give constant energy to prayer."

Give constant energy to prayer. :)

All the best peeps!

A season of Test

2011-03-06T08:14:00.007Z

I happened to remember my blog while showering, maybe I shouldnt abandon it anymore!

There's a time for everything. And i think it is a season full of emotions and desperations for me at the moment.

And, God was loud this morning when I was speaking to Him. He was shouting through that title "Don't Give Up!" Quoting from that devotional passage, "Regain the territory that devil has stolen from you"

It's easy to quit - it takes faith to go through.

Before reading this passage, I remember I was telling God, I am so tired now and I just want to sleep and rest physically & emotionally. I was honest to tell Him that I am reluctant to talk to Him and I do not feel like studying. (I am preparing for an exam tomorrow). And He answered,

Galatians 6:9

⁹And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint.

Isaiah 43:2

²When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned or scorched, nor will the flame kindle upon you.

If there is one person who would never leave you nor forsake you, it would definitely be Him.

I smiled at last in the midst of the emotions. Because I know, I have a great God, whom shall I fear?

That short conversation left me encouraged. : ) That's what an encouraging friend He can be!

And I get back to studies!

Telling u...

2009-07-27T15:13:00.004+01:00

It had been a long time since i updated my blog..
I thought I would stop blogging until lately..
I guess I will try to start blogging bit by bit..

You might wonder what I am doing and mayb wher on earth i am now..
I am currently in my hometown, Sibu.
Being a temporary teacher in my ex pri sch, Metho primary school. 2 months to be exact.
(15 June - 7 Aug) I will share more about this when I am done with my job. =D A tiring job indeed.

So I'll be enjoying myself after 7th aug most probably until 16th Sept.
I'll be flying off to Sunderland on 16th Sept.
Going to study Pharmacy in University of Sunderland for the next four years.
Would be back in 2 years time I hope.
I just got my visa today.. Thank God for that! =D

A lot had happened.
I would say... God really prepares.. He is the boss. He gives more than you can expect or ask.
I will share more about this when i am ready!
But yes, God has really shown me His faithfulness in my life at this very moment.
God's greatness is greatly shown in bad times!
His grace is more than i deserve.
I just cant help giving thanks =D

Longing to be close to Him once again.

Longing for YOU

2009-07-26T11:33:00.001+01:00

Here i stand within Your presence,
longing for Your touch,
a thousand days cannot compare to one day in Your courts.

Hold me now and never ever let me go,
My JESUS, my precious savior,
I am forever yours.

In a state of hunger and thirst for Him.

tired.

2009-07-24T13:19:00.003+01:00

I am tired. God..please grab me tight.

New year =D

2009-01-05T02:56:00.002Z

HAPPIIEEEEEE 2009!!!! hehee...

I'm sorry that i didtn blog before coming back here to labuan again.. hehee... i slept quite earlier on new yeat eve.. ahaha.. the first time i slept before it's 1 2 . ANyway..my new year day started off with a church service n a fellowship party.. it was great.. =D nothing much happens after that besides doing pile of homework... =( ..SOBSss... We dont really feel that it's new year day.. everything is just dull as usual in our college... hehee.. Well well.. as mid sem exam is coming up.. (12-13 jan 2009) everyone gts pretty panicked... So tat's why.. you hardly see people having fun likke what the norm shud be.. laughss...

Well.. nothing much comes to me this new year... my goal? I seriously dont know...a few things that i prayed that i can achieve this year wud be:
1. a closer relationship with our God.
2. a closer relationship with my family
3. get 4 flat in my final (if that's what God has in mind)
4. get the course i wan in the uni i wan. (by God's grace)
5. be joyful!!!! (which is really hard at times)
6. (private)

Hahahaaa... well.. these 5 are the main things i guess.. Well.. lastly..i would like to wish all of u happie new year n have a blessed year!! stay close to God n may God bless u all in eveyrthing this new year!!!!!!! EMMANUEL~

Bro's wedding~

2008-12-27T14:44:00.010Z

It has been a while since i last updated.. i'm stil alive n fine!!!! hehehehee... =D 2008 is going to end soon.. Ii'm coming back home for christmas break now. It's the same old home, but tis holiday was special. Yes. it is. The whole family was inside this house.. the scene i've missed so much since bros left home. it'd been a while..........since the 5 of us cud sit together under one roof.....tis time it's even more special as one new member joined us under this roof.. =D n tat's none other than my sis in law, Lee Ling! =D Well, my eldest bro finally get married already on 19th December 2008!!! A day i've waited for so long.. hehee.. i was soo excited! i shall post a few photos here...

sorry.. not in the right order.. my cousin, Val n i

well.. obviously it's me.. ahha

ahem ahem.. bahagianya..

auntie n uncle with their 3 cute kids!

Cousins

my best frens!!!!!!

with pastors, Bi ho and mom & Gabriel n mom

Family..

bro's art teacher presenting his oil painting of da sao n bro..

My little cute cous n i..

My second bro n I

Hahaa.. tat's my dad!

WHOLE FAMILY

Auntie Uncle n their 3 kids!!

Cousins n I

Yiyi, bro n I

Pastor Lisa n I

The candle..

Congratulations to my bro n sis in law!!! yippepeeeeee... Weelll..This is all about the wedding.. i know i know, i should write more!!!! i guess i'll do it next time.. heehehee...=d

People.. We seriously need God in everything.. from little things to big things.. He makes everything beautiful.. i trust that more than anything.. =D n i still trust it today...

I really wanna thank God for bro's wedding..for making all these happened.. thank my parents for everythin they have done for the preparation.. n deep down in my heart i pray for bro n sis in law's happiness.. =D Please have the best marriage under God's blessings.. Always stay close to God!!...

Well.. if there's a chance.. i'll tell u more about wat happen in the past few months!! hahaa.. sorry...

Hard times?

2008-08-21T15:04:00.004+01:00

I was pondering…

Life is not all about smooth sailing.. nor all about suffering.. There’re times when you get really desperate and just cry out to God, telling Him how much you need Him..and how weak you are…

Is pain always a punishment? No.. for example, was God disciplining Job when Job suffered? Nope. God had already held up Job as a model of goodness as He told Satan that no one on earth is as blameless as Job…so why should God discipline a blameless person? Well..a person’s trial may, in fact, be used to win a great spiritual victory. Like how Job has trusted God in his darkest days when Satan insisted that he would curse God.. Maybe this is how people around you can see the strength God put in you and how God can help u make it through when you trust if we are like Job. So shall we give up and mourn all the time we face trials? Or shall we stay strong by the strength from God n rejoice? It’s hard.. it is…..

Pain always come with a purpose. Look at the pain Israel gone thru in the book of Isaiah, but God makes clear that this pain was not arbitrary and purposeless. Like childbirth, it’ll lead to sth happy and good. God also reaffirms that the suffering of Israelites will one day lead to a great missionary among all humanity. Think about the pain we’re bearing right now.. I believe there’s a purpose there.. you might not find it now.. but soon… you’ll understand why…many times I do not understand why things happened but each time I looked back.. I know that they bear different fruits.. patience..love…and many many others..

I always believe that sufferings, pains and afflictions are meant to make us strong. They happen as to mould us into an instrument that God can use for His purposes. I guess we all agree that these afflictions make us grow.. don’t they? It’s just that they are painful.. so we must learn to rejoice and ask God.. wad r the things He want us to learn from each of them.. instead of getting depressed. But often, we’ll just give in to depression and let emotions take over us fully. It’s difficult but by faith, I believe we all can do it!!! =D

Perseverance is what I need to have. -Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who loved Him.- James 1:12 This verse always encourage me the most. =D as God promised me a crown of life! So people.. Persevere but do not let Satan defeats you!

So now, we should be joyful though life’s difficult, hard..painful..as Romans 5:3 said that….but we also rejoice in our sufferings,, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us. Pray for Holy spirit the comforter to comfort us when our heart breaks..

For whatever pain I’m feeling right at this moment, I know that it’s all for good..as Romans 8:28 says that..And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whoever been called according to his purpose.

Stay strong as God will be with us…Be honest with God and tell God today your innermost feelings, God knows you best..He truly understands.. Go to Him and rest in Him… Only Him can give you the comfort that ease you heart..

I’m happy that I have Him. =D

too lazy to update...

2008-08-19T03:14:00.002+01:00

I've sooo much to say... to tell.. to update.. but i'm just too lazy.... >.< aarrrgghhhh... I'll try harder next time.. hahaaa..

The land of Kampuaaa... HERE I COME!!!!

2008-08-12T14:16:00.006+01:00

Well.. though i have lotsa time.. but i'll try to make it short.. ahahaa...

9th of August..

Early morning.. Mel pulled me up.. hahaa.. to get ready for our early flight..=D mine was 0810..some came with me.. some were stil sleeping soundly as their flights werent that early..

My heart was shouting for joy when the airport stood rite in front of me.. Laughss.. I'd been waiting for this moment to come the day since i landed Labuan.. ahahaa.. happily we checked in, got our boarding pass and waited for the time to FLY!!! poor ah guang gt taxed for his 4L wine.. hhaaa..RM10 was pretty worthwhile though.. ahhaa..

I got 3 bulky hand luggages.. and lucky me got the first row seat and there was no place to place all my luggages.. Thank God for sending me great and handsome steward =P.. hahaa... Once i sat down on my seat.. i started to dozed off (as usual) even before the flight took off..I was drooling already when suddenly everyone were standing up and heading the doorway.. I was shocked.. I actually thought that i arrived Miri already but was kinda doubtful as well.. I asked others and found out something was wrong with the plane and we had to get down...I was blurred that time.. took everything and left..

Later.. we're given free nasi goreng and mineral water from MAS to compensate for our inconvenience.. Waiting and waiting somemore... one hour passed.. two hours passed... i started to get worried as my connecting flight from Miri to Sibu was 1320.. i must go back that day as Phebe was waiting for me!! we all prayed real hard.. i tried to ask them to squeeze me in 1210 flight but it was too full.. i started to get anxious but still trustin that God will make things right.. Soon.. friends using 1210 flight were coming and they laughed at us puas puas.. hahaa.. we were really desperate and restless.. haaa.. FINALLY at 1130am.. an annnouncement gave us all the hope!! we ran all the way to the plane..!!! hehee..

1320 i arrived Sibu.. but i didnt see anyone i noe..mom, dad. phe and joyce.. none of them were there.. i called and just knowing that they haven arrive.. hahaaa..Later.. i saw my car coming!!!!

taken by phe.. hahahaa.. i noe.,. i look fat.. cos the truth is i grew fat!! hahaa...n i was very 狼狈 already.. hahaa...

I finally met Phebe n Joyce... i was feeling sooooo happieee... God.. Thank U soo much.. i couldnt believe it u noe?? i was like in my dream.. !!!i couldnt express my feeling.. i was ssoooooo touchedddd... FINALLY!!!! God reli providessss....

Haaaa... went to sushi tie right away!!! =P

baby octopus.. to mic's mouth!!! =p

Later.. went to church as phebe's playing piano for sunday's service.. they were having a practice.. it was great to be back to church.. sitting beside phebe, listening to her singing and playing the piano.. i stil couldnt believe that all that were true.. i really missed it soooo much... the days when you played in youth worship service.. the day when u sang beside my ears... i missed them soooo much!!!!!!!! PHEBE.. you're finally back!!!

Arrived home later... Mom showed me the shoes, sandals and things she bought for me... hahahaa... *touched* they all look soo cute.. hahahaa.. mom and dad were as caring as usual.. awww... i missed my home... hahaa.. some changes were made... it's sooo great to be home.........

The smell of holiday..... :p

2008-08-12T13:02:00.007+01:00

8th of August..

Finally.. it's here.. I could finally go back to sibu!!after classes till 1130am... mid term break officially started.. we packed our stuffs n left KML!!! [thanks to Dee2 and Ain for helping me to "pull" down my huge luggage down 4 floors] We all squeezed into the church's van n left for church.. [we're staying there tat nite]

tat noon..we went around shopping for all kinds of chocolates and alcoholic beverages.. everyone spent sooooo muuuucccchhh on them.. hahaa.. as if they are free..we bought baskets of them.. haha.. hundreds are spent..now we noe wher's da place tat sell cheap ones.. we're lik ah sim surveying for prices, bargaining with the tauke.. laughss.. had lotsa fun tho..but real tired....went to the ferry terminal.. n it's nice!! =D had kfc for our dinner...

tat nite.. 080808...aahahhaaaa... the whole world's waiting for the arrival of 8pm.. hahaaa.. we all gathered at a church's uncle house to watch OLYMPIC's opening ceremony!! heheee... Stil searching the channel.. hahaa.. everyone's soooo excited!!

It was cool!!! but.. i stil cant tolerate the "huang mei diao" thingy.. haahaa.. =X everyone's cheering upon the unique performance and really grand opening.. =D I was kinda impressed with China..hahaa.. didnt expect it to be that special.. hahaa.. thanks to aunty for a great meal also.. hehee..We're all squeezed in a van that nite on our way back to church.. singing songs from streams of praise.. awww.. it's just like a group of kids in a van heading sumwher beautiful..perfect...n live happily ever after...the sky were full of starss... heart was singing for joy and peace that came from the holy spirit... awww.. hahahaa.. well.. i was imagining again.. =X

Back to reality..spent time sharing with pastor about my spiritual life in Labuan and the areas i'm serving in.. It was great to tell pastor my piece of mind.. I'm praying for our fellowship to grow spiritually in this whole year in Labuan.. I see so many people seeking God over there..I'm great to see more and more non-christian friends coming to church.. i realised that KML is a big harvest field.. am i really ready for it? :D pray more for me..

After that...packed chocolates till 1 sth and had beer with ah ma n mel.. hahaa..we couldnt sleep that nite.. probably tooo excited about going back? hahaa.. [we're all sleeping on the floor with ultra thin mattress] ah ma n i squeezed in one.. LOL.. ;later, ah ma felt cold and couldnt sleep well.. tossing and turning.. poor thing.. i was sleeping lik a pig.. =X

i'm getting long=winded here.. writing sth unimportant.. hahaa.. just feel like writing after all this while.. =D

awwww.....................

2008-08-09T16:24:00.004+01:00

[beloved gor gor n da sao]

My eldest bro and his fiancee

They looooooook sooooooooo cccccuuuutttteeeeeeee!!!

Getting married soon~

19th December 2008

n i'll be the bridesmaid!! XD

hiak hiak hiak..

n i'm back in sibu!!!! yay!!!

SSSssooooOOooo HAaaaappppiiieeeee

will upload more photos..

n will update the blog ssssooooonnnnnnnnn!!!!!

Happy Graduation!!!!

2008-07-15T06:48:00.002+01:00

Happi Graduation to Daniel and Charles.. hahaa.. AH BANG AND AH BOY!!!! It was yesterday.. my eldest bro finished his master degree and my second bro finished his 4 years of studies in National University of Singapore... TT and the sad news is i couldnt be there to witness all these.. >.< It's the first time that i feel so left out.. and i actually missed them sooo much that i would never believe it.. ahaha.. well.. i never knew i could actually missed them soooo much.. hahahaa..So many Memories flashing through my mind... They are getting a family photo in the studio there with grandma. daddy, mommy and da sao.. I couldnt be there too!!I've been waiting fot this day to come foorrr soooooo long... yet......AAAAAAaaaa...i couldnt be there.. *screams*..

All this becos... I'm stuck here in LABUAN!!!!! preparing for my UPS- ujian pertengahan semester.. coming up on monday!! SOBS... well well...

I'm really happy that brothers are finally graduated now.. i bet Mom and Dad must be the happiest creature on earth yesterday.. witnessing two of their sons graduating leh.. hahaaa.. well.. (they must be proud =X) I'm also proud of u both leh!!!!... (i got new money source... hiak hiak hiak hiak.. that's the main point bah...) aahahahaa....

Aaaa... i cant write much.. i gotta rush for my report...

I really thank God for my family.. =D i miss them soo much... Thank U Lord that they are both graduated now.. n i' pray that God will continue to lead them in future!! =D

LOVE U ALL!!!...I'm STIL FINE!! hehee.. n alivee.....

Updateeeeeee...

2008-07-01T06:33:00.003+01:00

Well...i'm stil alive and healthy.. almost everyone's sick... but thank God i'm stil ok!!! ahahahaa...Life is super duper busy here..hahaaa.. homework n cacated facilities make life hard... hahaha.... if it's nt water shortage then we'll get black out... if we get black out.. we'll have all the lectures cancelled... and if the weather is hot... then you'll feel like you're walking around in the desert without water (since the water machine oso not working) n wind...(in baju kurung summor) it's devastating when we first experienced it.. it didnt last 2-3 hours only.. but from early morning to noon... adddduuuhhhh... laughsss... water shortage is another major problem here... there's one nite when all the 4 gal's hostels short of water... i was desperate enough to go bathe with them at the tangki there with sarongs.. addduuuhh... (well.. this reminds me of longhouse trip).. hahaa... Life goes tough when you wake up in the morning.. having an urgency to visit the toilet.. (well.. u noe..=X) hahaaa... and yet there's no water for u!!!!! I got so desperate walking from block to block.. and soon.. the pain's gone.. -.- Laughss... Well.. This is life here!!!! hahahaa... We spend lotsa time walking to other blocks to bathe.. especially when i live at the 4th floor... aaadddduuuhhh.... (lagi) hahaahaa... people get depressed.. it's undeniable.. u c sad faces almost everyday around.. sometimes it get so unbearable... so please pray hard!!... XD

I'll use point form... it seems easier... hahaahaa...

Current news:
-My roommie, Jess get maktab and she's leaving.. i'm so gonna miss her.. though she's the penakut.. sleeping with me in the same bed almost every single nite.. (too many hanunted stories everyday... it's like endlesss... encounter wif the evil ones..) though she gets hyper most of the time... though she's crazy at times... but i'm reli gonna miss her lots... >.< So now.. i only have 2 rooommieesss...
~Ah ma's birthday today!!!Happpiiieeeee birrrtttthhhhddddaaaayyyy... hahahaaaa... Surprises for her... XD heheee... tis makes life beautiful when a fren smiles here.. :D
~My roommie brought us small cooker!! meaning we can cook already!!! well.. she seledup in.. is this suppose to be a news?? hahaa..
~3 of my tutorial mates leaving us for maktab.. while another one already left.. two of them, Nadzaty and Debora are the close frens i have here.. soooo gonnna miss them.. wish them all da best!!
~my semester exam is on 21st-22nd July...but lotsa quiz coming up.. sooo jia you!! pray for me!!!!!
~Lee Ying and Kuei Feng are both alright.. stil astayin alive.. but please do pray for them.. studies.. difficult life here... >.< ahaahahahaa....
~Shin Li's ear infected... So pray for her!!! that her ear will be painless and nanah-less...
-Hui Ming left for jpa!! all the best gal!!!! GOD BLESS U!!! it was great fooling around with her when we're stil in the physics class..
-went to a saxophone concert at church.. it's soooo great...was greatly touched and reminded of God's love.. Jesus dying on the cross for our sins.. Was greatly reminded to stay strong and firm over here in this isolated island o glorify His name!!
-I fell down.. hahaa.. a lot.. and there's one which is quite serious.. well.. i borught my clumsiness here... (mom, if u're reading this.. pls don get worried.. hhaaa... i'll be more careful)
-Going back to sibu on 9th August!!!!!!
-No holiday in december!!! >.<
-Joyce going to UCS!!!! (well.. i'm too slow.. maybe u all noe already...) WISH U ALL THE BEST BEN PO!!! don go blur blur ah!!!!!

Things i miss.....
-My family!!! (especially when i think of ah bi and ah boy's convocation which i am going to miss out.. >..<) my house!!!!
-CHEAP , yummy food!!!!!
-Frens in Sibu!!!!!!.... 9stil waiting for phebe to come here visit me!!)
-frens who left for jpa, maktab, universities, overseas... >.<
-Youth worship service!!!!!!advisorss and people derrrr...
-My gb galssss... >.<
-the kids in longhouseeee!!!!!
-non-kurung attire... haahaha.. XD
-WATER!!!
-TOILET!!!!
-BATHROOM!
(laughss.. i better stop.. the list will never end....)

There's toooo much things that i wanna say... but tooo little time... i have another lecture coming up in half an hour.. i have free period now.. so i can blog.. :D it's been ages!!!!! hahahaaa...

My prayer items:
-studies
-health
-facilities here
-devotional life
-my testimony
-people and relationship here
-time management

THANKS a lot... well.. this post'll be real messy... because.. i'm typing like a machine.. without thinking much.. soooo.. it'll be real cacated...

BYE FOR NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS U ALL!!!!!!

Tidak berjaya...

2008-06-11T02:30:00.001+01:00

I didnt get maktab.. T.T
HAhaaaa...
jia you ba.. pats to mic!!!!
laughss...
STAYING STRONG!!

nothing much.. =D

2008-06-05T08:07:00.002+01:00

My physics lab period ended earlier.. so i'm here going online.. hehe.. Wheeeee... :D

Finally i heard from mom last night.. she's finally back!! :D Thank God that she did not get sick this time!! :D

Well.. lessons started already.. so far so good.. We start having lots of notes to copy, tutorial homework to do.. and..Some of the tutorials and lectures are still cancelled.. So yea.. Sabar lah...Things will be better by next week i guess..

Hm...People who appealled for jpa scholarship knew about the result already last night.. (including me) Obviously, i did not get it.. :D But i'm ok with it because God's in control.. hehe.. Pats to those who did not get it.. and congrats to those who get it!! All the best to you all.. I'm stil patiently waiting for education scholarship.. (coming out in 5 days time!!).. hahaa.. Sam.. sabar lah... Pray for me! :D

Oh ya.. my physics lab lecturer just told us that we'll be having wireless connection in two months time!!! I hope it's true..!!! hehee.. God answered my prayer!!

nothing much... logging out.... =P (lazy lah...)

Whhhheeeee

2008-06-03T01:48:00.004+01:00

Wheee.... i'm here in the library's computer room!!! I can go in my blog!!!! COOL!! finally... i do not feel isolated in an island...laughss...

Well.. lessons suppose to start today.. but everything is kinda cacat here.. I'm still in physics class.. yes.. i know.. *SOBS*.. and,,This morning, our first lecture lasted 20 minutes.. and i'm supposed to be having my second lecture now but i'm here blogging.. sooo you know la.. hahaaa.. well.. What can I say.. laughss.. we end up hunting for books here in the library..surprisingly.. they have many tempting books here... Wheeee...

Um.. i have not much to say.. but i heard from PHEBE finally yesterday.. i'm sooo hyper.. laughss.... happiiieee..

Hm... Kuei Feng is not feeling well.. sorethroat.. Shin Li is having flu also...soo people, please keep her in your prayer.. :D Pray that she'll get well soon.. hehee...(and i just heard Dennis coughing a few computers away..haha.. pray pray pray) I think the weather here is making everyone getting sick.. SObss.s..

Oh ya.. i typed a long long post yesterday at the cyber cafe in town.. but something went wrong and part of them..(most of them) disappeared... SOBS... hahaaa... I was telling you all about the church camp i went last week.. :D It was GREAT.. to be in church again.. it's like.. going back to HOME... awwwww... and it's sweet to be around people who love God dearly... I came to know a few wonderful friends... :D I pray that we'll continue to love and encourage each other..hehe...

Hm.. briefly about the camp.. We had a bbq nite on the first day..It was fun.. (Mel and I ended up getting our palm yellowish..laughs) Labuan tour on the second day..We went to bird park, marine park, chimney, memorial park... and...I think that was all.. We had fun fooling around.. but the weather was killing us.. laughss.. We went to beach for the third day... (buidling sand castles, playing beach games...fooling around...hahaa) We had lots of fun there!! :D Then we had talent nite that nite.. hahaa.. eveyrone did sketch.. we're only given 5 minutes to prepare.. so it was a bit cacat-ed.. but we ended up laughin our heads off..They're all soooo funnY!! laughsss... And i had my first sunday service her elast sunday!!! WHhhHHHEEEEeee.... :D but i was babysitting the kids.. (noty and hyper ones) laughss.. so yes.. it was basically what happened in camp.. :D cool one!

Well well... Life here.. is still.. sad but true, MEANINGLESS!!.. It's like doing nothing at all everyday.. well.. maybe not nothing at all.. WE TALK fooorrrr houuuurrrssss EVERYDAY!!! laughss.. 5 of us, Shin li, "ah ma" (Ee Shin), Mel, Kuei Feng and I are always together.. talking and talking.... and went out to the town together.. :D Well.. we're like a gang now!! hahaaa.. maybe we'll come up with a name for it soon.. hahahaa.. apparently.. we just meet around the cafeteria..eating and talking..or just sneak into other's room.. and start talking somemore with friends from other places... Ahahaa... we get to socialise a lot... (or maybe tooo much.. hahaa) Hmmm.. That's life here...it's been a week already.. and i really dont see the purpose of coming here soooo early.. hahaa...But.. I'm stil trusting that God's plan is higher than ours!! whee.... pats to all who are stucked here like Robinson Crusoe.. laughss.. JIA YOU ALL!!!

gotta stop babbling here.... hehee... see you all!

BOOoooO!!!

2008-06-02T07:34:00.004+01:00

BOO!!!

WELCOME HOME PHEBEEEE!!!!!cant wait to see you.... >.<>.<

Stms-ians are in History Makers now!! jia you all... I miss you all soo much when Sam called just now.. *SOBS*...

I'm still healthy and fine.. missing home and friends at times..( most of the time i would say).. Hahaa.. but i'm still doing great(though life is boring...).. I have known a few new good friends here!! God provides.. :D hehe... Well, Perguruan scholarship will be out 8 days later.. Will i get it? Am i going to leave here? Am i going to leave this bunch of cool friends? Am i going to a new place?... haahaaa..questions and more questions..Pray hard for me.. I'll just leave it all up to God.. I feel kinda confused these days.. So please pray hard for me...THANKS!!! :D

People in Sibu.. i miss you all..!!!!!!!!!..soooo sooooooooo much....

Oh ya.. the application for jpa local scholarships ia available already!! check it out!! I just applied though.. :D

I better go already.. :D God be with you all!!!!!!

Lifeeee... in LABUAN!!!

2008-05-28T07:58:00.003+01:00

How come i can go online?? because i am out in the town at a cyber cafe.. ahahahaahaaaa...School havent start.. so 9 of us naughty ones escaped from the "prison"!! hhaaaaaa....

Laughs.. where do i start?...

25th evening i left sibu! :D Esmond and joyce sent me off at the airport. haha.. mom cried.. =X and ahem ahem.. well.. i was okay.. leaving with a heavy heart.. but stil excited about the new journey of life !! :D arrived Miri at about 6sth.. and we're blessed to have a christian taxi driver, Uncle Eric, who's willing to bring Vivien, Kuei Feng and I with TOO MANY luggages.. while the first driver rejected us.. He was ultra friendly and helpful!!!! We arrived Kingwood Inn after that.. it was.. um.. Old and... (better left unsaid.. =X) ahaha.. but it's cheap.. RM95 so.. no complaints.. haha.. Well.. 3 of us dined, shopped a bit.. and had fun fooling around the mall.. and....*fast forward* Next morning, 4am..*door slams* and i was awake!! haha... Vivien, in her baju kurung walked out of the bathroom. (yea.. we had to wear kurung already -.-)haha.. Yes! she's ready already!! haha.. So, Kuei Feng and I reluctantly woke up.. i had a great devotion that morning while Kuei Feng was in the bathroom.. :D After packing.. about 5:15am.. *handpohone rings* Uncle Eric called to wake us up and told us he'll be there soon.. hahaa.. early!!*fast forward* We flied from Miri to Labuan at 7am++.. Arrived at the Labuan Matriculation College at 8am++................

I was SHOCKED.. it was BIG, NICE, NEW.... and.. out of my expectation!!haha.. After registering.. we moved to our hostels.. i was allocated at Block C 4th floor.. Yes.. 4th floor!!!! ahahaa... I had to moved my luggage (20.3kg), a hand luggage and a sling bag up the stairs!!!! (thanks Sii Ying for helping) But... We nearly died... haha..It was torturing!! ahaha... My room is not bad la.. Better than I thought (so much better than MTS's =X)..

I want to upload more pictures.. but.. apparently... the computer here is super ultra slow.. that... i cannot do so.. so sorry..i'll do so when i have the chance..

Well.. i have three roomies.. hehe.. 1 kadazan(Jessica) and two malays (Ilma and Azi)..They are VERI cute, friendly and cheerful.. HYPER most of the time.. laughss.. they speak super fast malay and they roll their tongues!! haha.. I hardly catch what they say so most of the time, they have to slow down.. and of course.. i speak cacat-ed malay and bahasa rojak (malay+ english) haha.. I love my roomies.. they are helpful.. Azi and Ilma are PDT students.. so this is their second year here.. so i learnt almost everything from them.. their friends are hyper too.. Whale, Rin.. and.. many of them..We talk a lot.. haha..Thank God for these wonderful roomies.. hahaa...Hwa Lin is just beside my room.. so cool.. :D Others are at different blocks.. T.T

Okay..food here... for the cafeteria nearest to my block... is expensive!! and.. thy do not look nice.. and yes.. they do not taste nice as well.. haha.. but.. i'll try to learn to get used to them.. you cant find non-spicy and non-oily food here.. haha.. well well..... jia you.. pats..

The facilities here.. badminton court, tennis court, mini stadium, basketball court, soccer field.. and many many others... too many to name them all out, plus i havent actually finish exploring.. because the campus is too big.. which becomes a problem to us too.. we have to walk so much from a place to another.. Good exercise though.. haha.. well well.. the facilities here.. i would say they are not bad..

The weather here is.... KILLING us.. burning hot.. and wearing baju kurung under the sun is no fun at all.. haha.. it's soo hot.. and we sweat a lot here!! well.. the attire here is kinda troublesome for us.. collar shirt, long pants.. even outside lecture hall..it's like.. you are in your short pants in your room when someone asked you to meet her or him up at the cafeteria.. and you have to change long pants before doing so.. pretty troubling and uncomfortable.. haha.. no choice...

And guess wad.. although i'm missing out the 3 other camps in Sibu.. (congrats to my juniors for their 4th position in drill competition :D for uniform camp!) i just joined a church camp here from 29th may-1st june!! hehe.. at a methodist church.. :D cool isnt it? God does provide.. but yes.. we'll be having holiday from 29th-2nd june.. i was wondering.. what is the point of coming here so early? when you dont have class and all that... (yes.. lessons havent start..)..haha..

Oh ya.. Vivien left us.. T.T she decided that she prefers form six.. so she's going back to Sibu on 31st May!! so.. she'll be back to L6s3 =D.. wish you all the best.. Vivien.. WE WILL MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH... >.<>

Well.. i better stop.. (RM 3 for an hour!! sooo expensive la) life's good here.. i'm adapting well.. i'm happy with things here.. Life is boring here though.. no computer.. no TV.. nothing much to do since lessons haven start.. but i get to have more time to mix around and talk with new peoople.. and also i can spend more time with God here with less distractions.. :D hehe.. I'm fine.. healthy and doing ok.. so dont worry about me!! I'll survive.. it isnt as bad as i thought.. hahahaa.. I do miss home (dad called five times on the first day.. cool!!you miss me right? haha).. hehe.. but i'm coping with the life here.. hehe..

People...Have a great youth camp!! and History Makers conference..!!!!!! I'll pray that God speaks to each one of you in these camps!!! :D heheheeee... MISS YOU ALL!!!! :D Sms me if there's any prayer request okay??

PHE IS FLYING BACK TO MALAYSIA TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaa..

p.s: Sorry if everything is in a mess.. i dont have much time here... hahaa..

Pondering

2008-05-24T19:28:00.007+01:00

Well... I was pondering on the things happened lately.. giving thanks to our mighty God.. and the list was long!!!!

The tour which mom is supposed to lead postponed from 23rd to 26th May.. That gives mom the chance to help me out with all the packings and preprations. Perfect Timing.
Dad's transferred back to SIbu office after being trasferred to Sarikei office for THREE months! it's a broken record! laughs. I would say it's a blessing in disguise as dad gets to come back because of his operation in Feb. (removal of gall bladder) God did not stop here. He went further to bless us.. dad's reporting to Sibu office on monday (exactly the day i'm going to report at matric college) I leave home and dad comes home! This way.. mom has someone to accompany her! PERFECT TIMING AGAIN!aww..It's an answered prayer!
Dad started going to church!!!!!!! Joy that words cannot describe..Praise GOD!
i got the perguruan interview.. which brought Sam here also.. (same time same venue) and we're given the chance to write on our mission trip experience!! So cool!! It's like God arranged everything. Stms-ians(Sam, me, tim, ezra, xia wei, mic) also get to see each other again! YAY!!
Bintulu trip wif MAF. I was there last weekend. Upon arrival, Lily (one of the stms-ian who's in Kedah studying) sudddenly smsed me and said that she's coming back to Sarawak. I was SO SHOCKED! we screamed.. because.. what a perfect timing! We get to meet up with each other (Sam and niu niu too)!! so unexpected! Cool, isn't it?
Me not getting JPA scholarship. It makes me stronger! :D Learning a lot from this phase of life that i'm going through.. :D To have faith and trusting fully that it's God's will.. n learn to rejoice! Qoute* Afflictions are meant to make us strong!
Getting Matric! :D ..having the chance to get emo.. and grow up!
Phebe just told me that they are planning to go Sabah. So there's a high chance of us hanging out together!! YAY!! see? God provides..
My family. Who had been there.. encouraging me and helping me to figure out which path to make.. Also, more time for me to spend with my family..
My bunch of wonderful friends who really show their love and care throughout these few months which seemed to be real draggy.. full of endless waitings and decisions to make..Thanks for all the prayers and encouragement!

God's grace is just too abundant for me to list them all down. (plus this post is getting too long again..haha..) :D I'll learn to continue to be joyful always; pray continually; and give thanks in all circumstances. Because our GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!!.. even in bad times.. :D

Time to go..byes..

2008-05-24T18:18:00.006+01:00

Finally.. i finish packing already!! So many things to pack!! Shopped like crazy for the last two days.. and it's really tiring!.. (Thank You Mom and Dad for running around shopping for my stuffs too!!) haha...i stuffed everything into the luggage till it's obese now.. XD..laughss..and it's so heavy!!! (wondering how i am going to pull that up the stairs.. hahaa)

Am i ready to go now?

Hehe.. i don't know.. haha.. the last day to be here in Sibu.. i feel weird.. haha.. it's like..it doesnt seem real.. stil cannot believe that i'm heading Labuan so fast..my flight from sibu to miri tomorrow will be at 4:45pm..(it's past midnight.. so it's today!.. XD) then i'll be staying in Kingwood INN, Miri tomorrow night with Kuei Feng and Vivien..Ee Heng and Dennis are going with us too..hehe.. Then we'll have to catch another flight on monday EARLY morning, 7++ am to Labuan.. and report :D I pray that everything goes smooth.. :D

Hmm...I'm sorry for those who didnt get matric.. *pats* but i believe that God has a better plan for you all! Please continue to trust that He'll provide and make your path straight! ok? You might not be able to see it yet now.. don't lose heart but wait patiently and everything will work out beautifully... God is faithful..JIA YOU!!!

Lesley (one of my seniors) called earlier and advise me on matric..hmm.. water shortage.. n hmmm.. old facilities...and ummm.. spicy food.. and hmmmmm... wearing baju kurung everyday???... because only skirts are allowed unless you wear a long skirt (which obviously i do not have.. XD) I thought slacks are allowed!!! luckily aunty bought me another 2 sets 2day.. so now i have 5!! awww.. meaning 1 for each studyin days.. hahaaa... funny la.. wearing the same thing every week.. hahaa.. oh well.. laughs.. at least there're some good news!! unexpectedly fast internet connection!! WHhheeee... loving lecturers they have over there!! awww.. and most importantly, there's a church to go to!!! *GRINS* thanks lesley for the precious advise..I'll survive!haha

Today.. i'm really touched.. i got a parcel from Sam, my noobkia president from Bintulu!!laughs..very thoughtful farewell prezzie..aww... I'll bring them over.. and will always remember this phrase --> DO NOT PRAY FOR LIGHTER BURDENS BUT STRONGER BACKS..Thanks Sam for all your efforts!!! And.. Esmond.. Thanks for bringing us out for supper..(sorry ah chin and shan that we didnt get to meet in the end >.<)... the cafe was playing "season in the sun" by Westlife where there's a verse that starts off with GOODBYE MICHELLE... Awwww...i really had a great time with you.. You promised me you'll continue going to church and i am reli happi to hear that!! stay strong in Christ!!

Joyce reminded me just now that she's the only one staying among the 7 of us (our gang =p) Well.. She can only leave on September for Aus.. (because she's underage for june intake.. XD poor u..)so she'll be here alone.. patss. jia you!!!! she'll start working for the time being..Crystal.. stay strong also!!! You two must take good care of each other while i'm away!!!...God be with you!!

Thanks to everyone who wished me bon voyage :D Pray that we'll see each other soon!

Hmmm.. so NOW..it's time to go!!!! :D

*waves*

SPINS

2008-05-24T02:11:00.009+01:00

Yes. My life is SPINNING!! Laughs..Yesterday I was still a lower sixth form student stayin here at my hometown -- SIBU and today a phone call changes everything. yes. EVERYTHING! well, almost......

A new phase of life has just begun!! :D so here i am.. start blogging for the first time!!! :D (basically.. about my life... so i do not have to email to everyone :P laziness)

*clears throat*

To make the story short...this is what actually happened...

KEPUTUSAN PENEMPATAN CALON PROGRAM MATRIKULASI SATU TAHUN (PST) KPM AMBILAN KEDUA DAN CALON RAYUAN

Tahniah! Anda telah ditawarkan ke Program Matrikulasi,Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia.

Nama: MICHELLE HII NING XIN
No Kad Pengenalan: 900412137518
Program Pengajian : Pogram Satu Tahun
Kursus: M001 - SAINS
Nama kolej: 15-KM LABUAN
Tarikh Mendaftar: 22 Mei 2008

Yes! I am offered matrix after appealling. I was happy, shocked,excited and sad at the same time when Vivien shouted over the phone announcing the news. Laughs. I was reading it when suddenly i realised 22nd of May was exactly yesterday! JAW DROPPED. Hoping that they would tell us something like "anda boleh mendaftar seminggu selepas 22 mei", adrenaline rush ended. That means i can stil at least go to uniform camp or even youth mid-year camp. PHEW...but HISTORY MAKERS CONFERENCE!!!! aaaaaaa....

I was tryin to accept it already when Vivien called and screamed over the phone, telling me that we have to be der on 26th May!!!! i was counting..1 more day..2 more..3 more.. wait!!!! 3 MORE DAYS ONLy??!!! *screamsssss* Hahaaa.. it also means that i cant go to any of the camps.. SOBS!!!!Well, yea.. many friends and relatives were shocked..it is just too SUDDEN!! haaa.. Without the chance to scream somemore, i was dragged around WHOLE DAY buying almost everything u can think of. It was the first time i tried on soooo many different baju kurungs. I bought 3 sets of them. Hopefully, that is enough. (thinking of wearing them every single day.. hmm.. i don't know.. it might be good. at least i do not have to worry about what to wear.haha) And i'll be wearing long collar shirts, slacks, n everythin that i don't usually wear... hahaa..

Then.. i needed to hand over camp matters to others... I feel soooooo bad to ditch them last minute. SORRY to my beloved GB juniors and uniform camp committee n oso youth camp committee(esp TK..hahaa..).. I"M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really AM!!!..>.<>.<..Stil..I'll keep you all in my prayer!!!!!! Always remember..

Phillipians 2:1-4 says...
1If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. 3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Have a great camp!!!!

Next would be History Makers conference!!!Missing such a great camp that wud be life-changing made my heart cried out even more!.. I really want to be there and grow!!! But.. still.. sorry I cant make it. T.T Stms-ians (those who r going), i'm so sorry!! I was the one persuading you all to go yet in the end i am the one not going... aaaaa...SO SORRY! and i'm goin to leave Joyce alone in the camp.. T.T SORRY!!! I'll pray that you all have a great time and expect God to speak to each one of you!! =D Stil happy that you all can go! JIA YOU!

Then..here comes another heartbreaking one..I cant meet my friends who are coming back from overseas...Aaaaaa....T.T Sorry...This is really sad.. I want to meet up with you all.. i've been waiting and missing you all.. and now when it's almost time for you all to come back.. i have to go!aaaaaa... *screams* I'm sorry...I BELIEVE GOD'LL PROVIDE A WAY FOR US TO MEET!!!! stil trusting...

Saying Goodbye to parents.. I thought it would be easier.. Hahaa.. but.. nah..i tell you.. NOT AT ALL!!!words cannot describe the feeling to be away from them when finally the day arrives..Now all i'm worried is mom.. because she worries a lot. (ahaha..) Have to commit her totally to God!! hehee... I pray that she'll have PEACE and JOY :D..Now dad and mom can have all the privacy!! XD LAUGHS..and thanks bro for calling back and for all the criticism.. hahaa.. it was sweet though.. LAUGHS!! happi paktor-ing!!

For the friends and teachers i have to leave behind..n also GB (my kids there..aaa..)n Youth worship service!!!!and.. the kids in longhouse.. TTThanks for everything you all had done in my life.. i'm really reluctant to say goodbye.. i might not have the time to say a proper goodbye to everyone of you..Sorry >.< GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!

Well Well well.. I really do not know what God's will is in my life at this moment.. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND.. It's a major test..TTkinda tough i would say..But still i believe His ways and thoughts are higher than ours.. and i'll stay strong in Him..n by faith I'll get going!!! JIA YOU!.. Although suddenly there're many many things that i have to let go, to sacrifice.. Yet..I trust that there's a purpose for all these.. and God'll make everythin perfect and beautiful in His time. :D I'll wait patiently for this day to come.. when i can look back n say.. "AH! NOW I UNDERSTAND!" hehee..

I'm so gonna miss u all..

Now.. i wanna say thank you to all the friends who are praying for me... =D THANKS A BUNCH!!!!!!!!!

*sorry if this goes a bit long-winded.. haha.. forgive me.. i would not have the chance to write so much once i get there though.. so bear with me.. haahaaa..*